Wow... I'm posting! Does that mean I'm coming back to my journal??
Er, no. I'm back at LJ, but I've got a new name. Check it out: monkeesdreamer. Feel free to friend me there; I'd love to see and chat with you all again!
It's been a while since I've stopped by over here, huh? Seems to be the constant story. And no, I have not been reading Harry Potter this WHOLE time. :) Although it was an exceptionally good book.
I've also read THR3E, by Ted Dekker.
And am currently reading 'House' by both Frank Peretti and Ted Dekker. I'm half way through and it's starting to get slightly scary.... okay, it has me freaking out every night that a crazy madman is coming after me. lol
I've been listening to my WOW Contemporary Christian CD's lately. A lot. So that's something I've been really getting into. And speaking of music, one of the local radio stations is already playing non-stop Christmas music. Dude! That's just crazy. It's only November 11. And actually when I first heard a Christmas song was on the 7th. Craziness.
But, getting in the spirit, I've got a lot of Christmas shopping done already. Gotta love that. I the 'get out of my way' Christmas spirit when it comes to last minute shoppers. It's your own fault, buddy, for waiting until the last minute. And Christmas is supposed to be about love. SO QUIT PUSHING ME!! ;)
*is migrating into her cave to read Harry Potter*
*will be back in a week or two*
It's been a while since I've read them, so I've decided I want to re-read the first six books first. (One down, five to go) And then, at last, I will be able to read the final one.
Pretty frustrated right now....
I just spent THREE HOURS taking an eighty multiple choice and two essay question midterm. Only to find that when I clicked submit, the computer had logged me out after two and a half hours. So I lost the exam. You'd think/hope that the answers would at least be saved up until the point it logged me out. But no. They weren't. Seriously, the guy gives us three hours to take this exam, you'd think he'd at least arrange it so that we could FINISH.
But no. He can't retrieve it either.
Which means I have to spend yet another THREE HOURS on this same test in order to take it again. Oh, but he did wish me good luck. ::rolls eyes:: Yeah, like that's going to make me feel any better about it.......
I was searching for an old website I used to visit the other day and one of the search results turned up in WebArchive. So on this page, I typed in a couple URL's of pages that are non-existant anymore. I was so excited to find old Monkees fanfiction sites I used to go to, and even read some favorite stories that I had completely forgotten about!! :) It was very exciting.
I'm currently reading the Carolina Cousins series of books by Michael Phillips. These books are a continuation of his Shenandoah Sisters books. But anyway, one of the characters, Micah Duff....some of the things he says are so deep, it seriously makes me take a look at my heart and my life. He had a real long speech in the first book, and then the main character left Micah behind, so I figured that would be it. But now I'm reading the second book and Micah has made a reappearance, and now he's talking to the other characters in the same tone he spoke in in the first book. I've read a lot of books before; some of them Christian books such as these ones. But I've never had one actually inspire me to try and better my own life. It makes me feel good and confident that I can fix my flaws and be the person I really want to be. And it's a very deep-down-in-your-heart feeling.
My class has been going for about a week and a half. I guess I'm doing alright. I've taken two quizzes; one I got about a B on and the other....I'm not sure yet, but not quite so well.
I've got to clean my room..... it's really getting to be quite a mess.....
Just fyi to everyone....I finished the semester with all A's. Yeah, I know I'm bragging. lol I'm still shocked about it. But not complaining, of course......... So THAT'S what happens when you don't slack off.... ;-)
Well, not really much to update. Been working a lot. And it's getting much busier now that's it's getting into summer.
I plan to take a summer class, which will start June 6. Intro. to American Government. Online. And speaking of which, I still need to get me a textbook for it.
I got myself a webcam. But I don't like it. I mean, I like it, but the picture resolution is not even close to what I was hoping.
I ran into a guy the other night that I kind of like. He's such a sweetie. But I need to focus more on reality. I go all giggly because of the guy I USED to know. It's been so long, and I run into him for a couple minutes maybe two or three times a year. So how can I honestly like him for who he is if I no longer really KNOW who he is. *shrug* Still, just talking to him for those couple minutes.... he's such a sweetie!
Hmm.... well, if you can't already tell, I'm grasping for things to write about. Heh, maybe I'm just a dull person. lol
The semester is finally over!!!
I'm so exhausted. I stayed up all night last night working on my Biology projects. And I still know there's no possible way I would have gotten as many points as I had hoped for. I literally ran out of time.
I almost didn;t go to bed at all last night since I had so much to do. But my body was screaming at me to at least lie down and rest for a minute. So I decided to just go to bed. Yeah, so this was 45 minutes before I had to get up and get ready for work. lol
Bed at 3:30 am, up at 4:15 am for work. HaHa!! So yeah, right now I'm pretty much going on 45 minutes of sleep in the last 40 hours.
I'm exhausted. I'm going to bed. And I promise I'll get caught up on emails tomorrow.... But not tonight. Because I REALLY, REALLY want to go to bed. :)
I have been so busy lately, it's crazy!
When it comes time for finals, Rachel has a tendency to panic, therefore she keeps herself way to busy by studying..... But at least some of it has paid off.
Yesterday for Biology, I took my Tree Identification final, which consisted of matching the common name, with the scientific name, and then matching them with a tree specimen, and yes, there were cards left over that didn't have a tree. I got 100%.
And I also took my Flower Identification final. Which I didn't feel prepared for at all. But I spent a lot of time in the study room looking at the samples before I went and took the test. For this one, all I had to do was match the common name with the flower specimen. Most of them I'd never heard of until this class, though, so it's not like it was easy. Plus she had only ever gotten out the flower samples ONCE, and that was at the very beginning of the class, so we hadn't even really had a chance to study them. But my extra time spent studying them before taking the final paid off. I got 100%.
My teacher grumped at me yesterday for "cutting" in line, which I really didn't. They were just disorganized and I was really frustrated by that point. Not once did they tell me I was supposed to wait outside of the exam room doors for my turn. Not once did they even tell anyone WHERE these exams were. She came into the study room, which me and Aaron were in, to set it up and bring in the tree samples. She asked if anyone was ready and Aaron volunteered. So, naturally, I was expecting her to come back and call for someone else when he was done. Well, she didn't. So I went back to the classroom, I thought MAYBE she was calling people out of there. I looked up at the Final Sign-up Sheet (there were three to take, and you had to sign up for at least one), and there were a couple people's names circled, which meant that they had done it. Okay, now I got frustrated because I had no idea what was going on. Plus I couldn't find Aaron anywhere to ask him. So I waited in there for a little while, then back to the study room for a while, then back to the classroom for a while. Okay, by this point I was really closing to crying, I was so frustrated. Now, the class was 2 1/2 hours over. Yeah, I was waiting and walking around and LOOKING FOR SOMEONE for that long. FINALLY, I saw the teacher and asked her what the deal was and she showed me the bench outside the doors I was supposed to wait on. Of course, I'm fuming, because if I'd known that I would have been there right away, 2 hours ago.
Well, there's nobody else out there but me, and I get called into the flower test right away. It took me maybe five minutes, and when I came out, there was a line of five people waiting for the tree test. And the tree test took the average person about 1/2 hour to do. Do the math. Class ends at 6; it's 5. Then the assistant that came out of the tree room implied that whoever was "next" was whoever signed up on the board in the other room. Well, you know me, the quiet one who usually doesn't say anything. I was so frustrated by this point, and was ready to take the tree test right from the get-go, and would have taken it right away had someone actually told me what the deal was. Well, I was the second person to sign up. So, stupid me for actually thinking it was fair, spoke up. The assistant took me to another room to sort through the cards and match scientific names with common names (it would be quicker this way once I got into the tree room). As soon as I'm done, I've got the cards in my hand and I'm walking out to tell someone I'm done, the teacher catcher me right at the door and starts chewing me out. 'You were not next in line, you shouldn't have gone. ----- was next in line.'
I almost cried. I just held out the cards to her and said that fine, I would get to the end of the line. So said, 'No. You have to take it now because you know which trees are going to be in there.' So she makes me go sit out the tree room, and wait for my turn. I almost started crying right there. But I was a good girl. I didn't. I waited until me and Aaron were out of there and on our way home to let it out. I heard her go in the tree room and started hollering at the assistant. I told the assistant how sorry I was and how bad I felt, and asked her to tell ----- (who had decided to take the flower test since she had to take SOMETHING and class was almost over, and she had to be out right on time to pick up her son from day care), too. Then later when she came back in the class room, I told her how sorry I was and how bad I felt about speaking up for what I thought was rightly my turn, and I explained myself about how I would have taken it right away and how I was really frustrated. She was okay about it, she just explained how she was frustrated because she had to take at least SOMETHING, and then I "cut" in line in front of her.....
It was just a bad situation. We did the class evaluations at the beginning of class. Me and Aaron both agreed that, had we done them afterwards, we both would have put STRONGLY DISAGREE under organization. As it was, since we did it BEFORE, I think we both put that we AGREE that it is somewhat organized. I seriously wish I could take it back and change it.... that was not right at all. They weren;t in the least bit organized, and they were all cranky and stressed, and the students were getting caught in the crossfire. Then when you get someone like me, who takes everything, all criticisms to heart, well, it's just not a good mix.
So needless to say I'm really stressed right now. A tad bit angry. Worrying about my bills. Worrying about my parents bills since it causes them to "disagree" on things. Worrying about my attitude. Wprrying about more finals next week. Worrying about my job; I know my job performance has been low - I'm working on fixing that. Wishing I had time for myself.
Oh yeah, and I got a flame on an old, OLD story of mine. It had no plot. I'm not a good writer. It sucked. Yadda, yadda, yadda.
Sometimes I wish I could just seclude myself from all the mean-spirited people in the world and just have my own little bubble. Plus it worries me that I found the phrase, "Gone to my happy place...you're not invited" quite amusing. Why can't people just be nice???
I can't believe how quickly the year is passing by. I mean, it's the middle of APRIL already!! And I only have three weeks left to the semester. Which that thought has me freaking out because that means finals are just around the corner.....
Registration for the Summer and Fall semesters is tomorrow. Lucky for me I've got a plan, so I know what I'm going to take.
Honestly, between school, work, and homework, I'm beginning to wonder if there is such a thing called, um, what's the word? Oh yeah....relaxing.
I've got Math homework due today:
The assignment is to look over the material (which I haven't done yet) and come up with two questions.
English Comp. homework due tomorrow:
A Full Outline of my final Research Paper
Math homework due on Friday:
Answers to classmates homework questions (see previous math homework).
Math homework on Saturday:
One test and One quiz.
Plus I have to work tomorrow 5 - 11 am, then I have class from 2 - 6 (yeah, so when was I going to get the homework done that's due tomorrow??)
Then Friday I have my Biology Lab (8 hours outside) from 10 - 6. (And my Math homework, which takes time, will get done when...??)
And then on Saturday, I work from 5 - 11 am. So when was I going to find time to study for my test and quiz??
Um, the answer to that last question....all of my homework for the rest of the week is getting started today. So, um, I guess I better get started, huh? ((Plus I've been up since 4 am, so I'm already a wee bit tired)
Feeling kind of sad right now. Had an argument with my dad.
Okay, I'm oficially losing it.... lol
I've been so busy, I think my mind has lost track of the days, and it's fallen into a routine that change (and weekends) are throwing it off.
Yesterday, Saturday, I work up at 4 to go to work, and the first thought that crossed my mind was, 'Darn it, it's Tuesday and I forgot to copy my notes to give to Ryan.' Yeah well, it took me a minute to realize that yes, it was actually Saturday, and I still had the whole weekend to copy my notes.
This morning I woke up around 7:30 (never work on Sunday's). I had some thoughts about why I wasn't at work, but then I thought about it being Sunday so that was okay. I dozed off again and my family woke me up about 9:45. And THEN.... I started freaking out about the notes again. It was wierd. I reminded myself that it was Sunday so I still had a couple of days to do it.
I think I might have my mind a little **TOO** focused on school. lol And am not getting enough sleep, so that's why it's getting confused.....
Another thing, (no this has nothing to do with what I've been talking about) when my family got home this afternoon, I noticed there was a big spot of water on my bed. It definitely wasn't the dog, because it was definitely water. But what's really wierd is that there's no place in the ceiling where it might have leaked. We had our roofing re-done last November/early December, but my dad climbed up and checked it out anyway. He figures he knows how the water got into the ceiling (through a vent), but what is mind boggling is how the water dripped through the ceiling into just that one spot when there's no place on the ceiling for it to have dripped through. 'Tis very very strange. NOTHING else in the house is wet....just that ONE spot. And it definitely wasn't the dog. It would make sense if it was her....but it was water. It's just very confusing.....
I've been feeling extremely drained the last couple of days. Mentally AND Physically. Physically, because I'm getting sick, and not getting much sleep at night due to homework doesn't help with that. Mentally, because I'm trying to memorize the scientific and common names to 40 different trees. I think I've pretty much got them all down, but now the hard part is to learn to recognize them visually. I'm so lucky Aaron is taking this class with me, or else studying would be much more complicated!
So for Biology yesterday, we had to go to a bog. I fell once and, uh, it was wet. lol At least I didn't fall IN. The way it's works, is that the grass and stuff grows out over the water and is thick enough you can actually walk on it. She told us not to get too close to the edge though, or else we'd fall into the 'lake' (very small one, this was). Technically it was called a "Kettle Lake." And if you fell in it would be very deep and if water got into your waders it would pull you to the ground. So needless to say I was very freaked out about this. Every step I took I made sure there was ground beneath my feet before I actually put my weight down. lol (It was all ankle to knee deep (sometimes deeper if there was a hole) mucky swampy water, so you really couldn't tell where you were stepping until you actually stepped.
On another note the waders were pretty snazzy. Much cooler than I was expecting them to be.
Me and Aaron have both agreed we don't like bogs. Although she's already said that we're going to end up going to one or two more. They're cool to learn about, they're just a pain to walk around in. And anyway....doing that yesterday really attributes to my being extremely exhausted today. And memorizing the trees, goodness, me and Aaron both are seeing tree names in our sleep. Aaron said at work today, he kept getting distracted. It was funny. He was in grill this morning making sandwiches and he told me he'd be like, looking at the order, and then while he made it his mind would wander to trees. He told he'd think ::Egg McMuffin:: ::American Beech....Fagus Grandifolia:: ::Sausage Biscuit:: ::White Pine....Pinus Strobus:: It was funny the way he explained it. And I'm the same way. Yesterday, EVERY time the teacher would mention the scientific name for a tree, I couldn't help it, I just translated it and blurted out the common name. It's all trees, trees, trees right now with us. And we've got almost half of them memrozed by sight, too. Although we haven't gotten so far as to how to tell all the White Pine, Red Pine, Scotch Pine, Jack Pine, etc. apart from each other yet. But we do know quite a few. We had a mini quiz the other day where we had identify 5 as a group (three people in every group) with both common and scientific names, and then there were two sets left over which had to be match together common/scientific names. We had been studying trees for about an hour and a half (open lab time b/c we finished with our scavenger hunt first), and we just walked right in and named almost all of the five on the desk without even getting the cards first. lol It was funny. We passed with a perfect 7 right! So all this studying is paying off, but it's still starting to be mentally draining.
My Algebra is getting to be a bit harder. Well, maybe not so much HARDER, but I've already learned so much. And now it's just like, 'Please, give me the exam before all this new information falls out because my head is already so over-load with information from this class already.'
I'm afraid I won't get much of a break, though, because I plan to take two summer classes. Chemical Science (get my Chemistry out of the way) and American Government (online - shouldn't be too difficult). The reason for this is because since I'm currently attending a community college, they have limited classes, and they're never the same from semester to semester. And if I plan on graduating next year, I want to make sure I have all the classes necessary. I mean, I wouldn't want to be caught in the last semester with one of the necessary classes not offered that time. So I'm trying to get a plan as to how I can get them all done. And the Chemistry class is taught by my Biology teacher's daughter. And she's nice, so it should be a good class.
Meanwhile, work today was extremely hectic. Nobody could get motivated to move fast in our "Fast Food" restaurant. Which frustrated me because nothing I say gets people to get pepped up, so I just don't know what to do. As soon as my shift was over, while I was counting my inventory, alone and secluded in the freezer for a while, I couldn't help but cry because I was so frustrated. And afterwards (along with after another manager patiently listening while I complained) I felt much better. I hope tomorrow has a good shift. I love running shift and I love opening, but that's just another thing that's starting to drain me a little. I love it, but all the pressure and stress and frustration and pretty mentally demanding.
Anyway, I'm tired and I'm catching a cold, so I feel lousy right now, too. So I think I'd better get off, get a shower, and head to bed. And then tomorrow, starting at 4 am, it's right back at it.... *sigh* Love it! Just wish I could be normal and sleep in once in a while. At least until 7 or 8 (I don't like to be a LATE sleeper....I always feel like the day has passed me by if I don't get up before 9 or 10).
Anyway.... goodnight everybody. I'm going to bed.
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In other news....
The weather here has been so crazy. At the moment, it is about 63 degrees.
My dad accepted a promotion at work. He is not a manager, but he's the Person In Charge when a manager is not there. So he's learning the ropes and everything. There are some things he's struggling with, but I believe in him that he can do it. His new work schedule is crazy, though. They've been having him train on night, and after only a week of training, some time next week they're going to have him go solo. He said he's going to be sunk if they don't write down any tips for him. Which they should do. I would have been lost the fist time I closed (no, we don't work at the same place, fyi...) on my own if someone hadn't written up step by step procedures. I mean, I could have done it, but having that there with me made me confident enough to do it.
My Biology class is crazy. Me and Aaron went on an insect hunt this morning. I have 3 out of my 15 necessary insects for my collection. A common fly, a bee, and an earwig. Don't worry, they were already dead, so I didn't actually "catch" them. I just "found" them. Yesterday we had to watch a snake, um...get fed. I felt so bad for the poor innocent...meal. She was so cute (it was a little mouse). Seriously, once the snake catch sight of the mouse, it pounced and was on it faster than you could blink an eye. Watching it kill the mouse was probably the most heart-breaking part. It suffocated it. And watching that little mouse struggle to get some air was so sad..... And everyone else (except Aaron) was laughing at how the mouse jerked and everything. Those heartless people!! I mean, I understand that this is a natural part of life, and happens all the time out in the wild.....but I didn't want to watch it. :( And now we have to write a one-page paper on our observation.
Why is it that people feel they have to be so rude and mean? It's like their one and only goal and purpose at any given moment is to make whoever they're talking to feel like dirt.
Last night was ridiculous. Sometimes I love working with the public, but other times, like last night...I don't. It's like, some days, every one is so sugar sweet and those are the days you're grateful for. But other days, if one person's cranky, man, let me tell you, THEY ALL ARE. It's like a virus or something. Wake up in the morning, 'Oh, wow, it's cranky day, I'm gonna see how many things I can find to nit-pick today!' They've all worked out some sort of unknown telepathic thing. One person thinks that, and they all put the idea into motion.
Just FYI - I don't REALLY believe that telepathy thing. I'm just trying to put some humor into this post so any unsuspecting reader won't thing I'm nothing but a complainer. Which I can tend to be sometimes...but, shhhh.
In other news, I aced my fourth Algebra quiz. So I'm 4 for 4. And I've gotten top score on all the homework and stuff, too. I honestly can't believe it.
We hatesess nasty finals, don't we precious? Yes, yes, we do.
History final tomorrow. Worst one of 'em all. And I don't feel in the least prepared. I'm so stressed. And worse, I'm really hyper at the moment (darn to all that caffeine to keep me awake for studying), so I'm having trouble focusing on the history. Nerves....are going crazy right now.
1 English Lit. Discussion Board
1 English Lit. (Final) Essay
1 History Paper
1 Journal Collection
2 Class Days
1 Review Day
1 Final Exam Day
9 Psychology quizzes to catch up
AND I AM DONE WITH THE SEMESTER!!! Oh, yeah! :)
Tomorrow is going to be such a long day. Me and Aaron both closed tonight and now tomorrow we're going to be working pretty much 7 - 5. 7 - 3 here and then up to train for an hour and a half. (1/2 hr. drive in between).
And tomorrow is my parents anniversary. We got them one of those "moving" pictures. It's of either a waterfall or a river; I can't remember.
Well, I need to get to bed. Katie tagged me in something, I think, so I should do that sometime soon.
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Peter's POV on the way others think about him. TV-verse, so it's along the lines of him as being the "dummy." Not the greatest, I know, but I'll admit, I am a little rusty at this Monkees story writing.
He may not be my favorite, but I do love Peter. :)
((And now..... back to the homework..... *sigh*))
So....why must all the sites with the best Monkees fanfic be non-existant anymore. It kinda sucks. :( Especially when you're in the mood to read some Monkees fic. *sigh*